Simply put, I'll only feel exclusive if you treat me exclusively.
After some thought, I'm not going to live with it. I'll let it passby me. I don't care if you think I'm such a clueless person ranting whatever here. It's better somehow to look at me that way. You think with me relief teaching or some small jobs is nothing. To me it's something. Things as little as that gets me somewhere. Rather than be in a so-called stable position but yet having doubts about it.
The least I want is happiness. I never ignore the smallest things in life coz they sometimes makes me the happiest person. But if you always hope for the big things which you think will make you happy as hell, then, you're bound to face with big disappointments.
So, the way I see life is difficult? So, I'm a difficult person?